Thursday, June 10, 2010

All my little blessings

Let me say that God has answered every prayer request I have had in regard to my daughter, even the ones I did not voice out loud. 

~The pregnancy was smooth. 
~My daughter is beautifully healthy. 
~She came on Memorial weekend when friends and family could easily come visit.
~She came when my husband was at home and could easily get me to the hospital.
~My water broke with my not having had a single contraction, guaranteeing that they would keep me at the hospital. 
~I got the on-call doctor I wanted. 
~I had the best labor/delivery nurse. 
~And, relatively speaking, labor/delivery moved pretty quickly. 

Bearing all this in mind, I have graciously decided to cut God some slack on all the prayers about my school/career that He has not quite answered to my satisfaction. :) I am beginning to think that He may have known best... known how much she would change me... how instantly and intensely my heart would be knit to hers... how much she would heal me... how much I would want nothing more than to be with her...

I had a wonderful time (minus the pain) in the hospital and it truly was one of the best weeks of my life. Here are some of my favorite memories that I have packed away in my mental scrapbook:

~I was having a nice lunch with my friend and didn't think too much of the fact that I was "raining" in my seat the whole time... 'cos you know on TV it always comes on like a thunderstorm.

~When the contractions were the worst, C.(hubby) was whispering his favorite memories of our life together thus far into my ear.

~Ms. P and L. scouring the hospital cupboards like a couple of excited pirates making sure that I went home with a bounty of goodies for the baby. They both did it at the same time, with no cues from each other. Ah, genetics. :)

~The best kind of friends... for staying... with no regard to my puking, the lateness of the hour, the long wait or uncomfortable chairs. (Thanks, B, Ms.P and L!)

~Having my husband tell me what an amazingly strong person I was to go through all of that pain, and how proud he was of me. And for all the ways having a child together has deepened an already strong love.

~After the labor nurse gave me my first IV painkiller, she told me it would feel like drinking three Tequilas. When the drug hit my system, it confirmed for me why I made the right decision by never drinking. 

~In order to comfort me that the baby was coming soon (and faster than they expected) my labor nurse told me that the doctor was putting on her "ball gown."

~Nurse (after the baby came): "Congratulations, you just ran a marathon."
Me: "No. I have actually run a marathon and it was by far easier."

~The Oprah Effect 
After too many years of anxiety about the question of having children, and far too many episodes of Oprah listening to mothers who had formed no attachment to their children, I was amazed at my instant, immediate, intense love for my child.

~The knowledge that everything worth savoring in this life is sweeter, more exquisite with Jesus.



Doris said...

Wonderful! I always tell people that while your pregnant you know you love this baby, but something happens the very instant that baby comes out that changes EVERYTHING. There's this LOVE that is just overwhelming. It takes your breathe away, the light goes on in your head and everything makes sense. It's at that moment you realize you would give your very life for this new hesitation. What a glorious moment...and THAT is why women would dare to go through THAT pain of labor again & theory anyway.

The part about remembering moments together during contractions...priceless!...good man!

I'm so happy for you!

kenzsethia said...

So well spoken. Awesome perspective! Love it! The great part is...You love the next one just as much as impossible (and nauseating) as that seems right now. Adoption worked the same way for me too...God is awesome like that!

Ellen said...

Beautiful post, Paula. Welcome to motherhood! And now comes the fun of all the firsts you and C. will love sharing together as she grows. God is good.

Trudy said...

Oh, I am so, so happy to hear all of these wonderful memories (and the pictures are beautiful!). One of the great blessings of your first child is still having the time and where-with-all to write those memories down. Yes, that love, that bonding, is an incredible gift from God. As well, I have never loved my husband as much as I do when I see him loving our kids. God is so good to us in so many ways!!! And, one more thing, I know a marathon would be impossible for me, but somehow I birthed 4 you've done both! amazing. :-)

Ruby Red Slippers said...

I knew you would love this ride we call motherhood...
So, so happy for you-
See you tomorrow!

Jaime said...

Congratulations! We're so excited for you both! I can't wait to meet her!

Becca said...

Yea.. sitting in a PUBLIC library with tears running down my face! Thanks alot! :) Soooo happy for you!!!

Becca said...

p.s i really love viewing the blog on the computer too.. instead of my lil blackberry :)